prncsspluto: i am constantly giving pieces of myself to different men who only see me as an object they can use for their personal pleasure. i realize this comes from an insecurity, it's like this is the only attention any male seems to give me and I'd rather have this attention than none at all. im in this viscous cycle and I'm hurting so badly inside and i know I deserve better but it's like even though I know it, I cannot stop. And I don't know why.
you don’t know the feeling.. or meaning of what it is to be “valued”. so you lean on the foundation of what you’re used to. most relationships start out.. feeling right. you feel good.. for the time being and you go for it. you allow yourself to fall. then things change. for whatever reasoning. but that beginning part.. that stage where you “felt good” is what you so eagerly chase. from one man to another. you neglect the reality of the matters - and fail to realize that in ‘relationships’ we are agreeing to be a partnership. meaning, you have to be an independent force on your own - first. you have to be happy with who you are and what you are - before entering into a business or “partnership” or “relationship” with another person. and if not - you attract people who are you. people who aren’t ready yet. people who don’t know what the meaning of love truly is. people who don’t value their own selves so they don’t know how to necessarily value anyone else, either. you can stop.. but you have to want to. you have to want to change your habits.. and your ways. you have to want to dig deeper within.. and heal the broken and bruised parts of you.. and then you have to make peace with your past. then you have to let it all go. you have start fresh.. become something “new” and create yourself into the way your ideal reality is. meaning.. you have to become the person you want to become - the person who you want to be with. again, you are who you attract. so the more growing you do.. the more developing and discovering you do - of “self”.. the more growth you’ll see in relationships. the more you’ll be able to stay clear from people who may harm you.. or who mean you no good. relationships all start within. they start with self. and you will never find the relationship you hope to be apart of - if you arent improving - on your part.
Introverted
Thinking (Ti): Summer has a
theory of life, that in her mind encompasses everything: love doesn’t exist.
She refuses to believe in it, because she’s intellectualized it, and reached a
subjective conclusion that despite all evidence to the contrary (in other
people’s daily lives) – love is an illusion. She recognized two things as a
child: she loved her hair, and felt nothing when she cut it all off. Her
analytical, detached approach with Tom means she often hurts his feelings, when
refusing to establish true emotional bonds with him. She’s interested in his
thoughts about life, and how he intends to accomplish things, but remains
detached from their relationship.
Extroverted
Sensing (Se): She is
impulsive and present in the moment. She came to town on a whim because she got
bored. She lives her relationships for the moment, and moves past them once
they’re over. Summer is easily bored by things; she turns down lingering at the
art museum, and discussing abstractions of art, in favor of the movies. She
wants things to be “casual.” Summer doesn’t wait to become physical with Tom;
she kisses him the day after their first long conversation, and sleeps with him
not long thereafter.
Introverted
Intuition (Ni): “I just woke
up one day and knew, what I was never sure of with you.” On occasion, she shows
flashes of intuitive insight and engages in abstract conversations (the meaning
of life, etc). She also knows what she wants for her future, and Tom… isn’t
it. Summer becomes intellectual in their first conversation, but tends to have
an open-ended approach to life. Once she realizes Tom isn’t the one, she can’t
visualize them together and breaks up with him. She never changes her overall worldview
once (no Ne).
Extroverted
Feeling (Fe): She doesn’t
really care about anyone’s feelings, but is frank in expressing her own –
often in the moment. She cries when watching a movie that appears to reflect
what she truly wants out of life. Summer has an overall casual likability and
ease of conversation. Summer seems to reflect Tom’s emotions at times, by being
more open to different ideas – but she never really changes; showing that she’s
just mirroring, as opposed to truly connecting.
prncsspluto: i am constantly giving pieces of myself to different men who only see me as an object they can use for their personal pleasure. i realize this comes from an insecurity, it's like this is the only attention any male seems to give me and I'd rather have this attention than none at all. im in this viscous cycle and I'm hurting so badly inside and i know I deserve better but it's like even though I know it, I cannot stop. And I don't know why. 
